Just Rambling

So today I have a ton of things on my mind and I am very frustrated. All I have felt like doing today is crying. First I had a bad encounter with my boss. I'm not going to get into it because in the grand scheme of things its not really important. Then I talked to my mom. To give you some history that will explain this I need to first tell you that in the last 5 months we have noticed a change in my dad. He hasn't been himself. He has been "out of it" when you talk to him. He has been sleeping a ton. Not interested in anything. It has been super hard on my mom and she has been telling me all about it. I am extremely worried about my dad. I thought it might have been a stroke but the doctor says no. Our doctor has been sending him for all sorts of tests and things but nothing has been found. I know that something has happened. My mom mentioned today that she thinks it might be Alzheimer's. That thought had crossed my mind too but I didn't want to admit it.
I told my mom that she needs to make an appt with our family doctor and tell him her concerns. I think sometimes this guy just brushes people off. My mom needs to talk to someone in order to deal with my dad properly. She is getting mean towards him and its hard for me to hear. She isn't nice when she talks to him because she gets so frustrated. I hate it. I really hope that she goes to the doctor and really pushes for him to do something for my dad. If not, then I will be going in there and telling out doctor to get off his lazy ass and figure some things out. I hate that doctors in Calgary are so overworked that they just rush people through and things get missed or misdiagnosed. You can't do that with people's lives.
It helps me to write in here so I can get it off my chest but I know this isn't exactly positive. Its just been really hard to stay positive lately.

Also I have decided that I really need to look for a new job. I just can't shake this "life sucks" attitude when I am supposed to be so happy over so many things.
Seriously sometimes I just want to scream really loud but unfortunately I am at work and am unable to do that.