Vacations

There are so many vacations I want to take G on in the next few years. Here are some of the ones I am considering.

http://www.sesameplace.com/sesame2/

http://www.beaches.com/

http://www.gohawaii.com/maui/experiences/family

I would also like to do a san diego trip, go to the zoo, seaworld etc.

Why do I always find.....

people that act like they are still in high school???? Seriously do I attract them somehow?? I must have a flashing sign above my head that tells them to come to me. What I am dealing with right now is these two girls at work. One is almost 40 and the other one is almost 30. We will call them A and B, respectively. So B gets engaged awhile ago and asks A to be her maid of honor and me to be a bridesmaid. Well a few months later she tells me that one of the groomsmen has dropped out of the wedding so she has to kick me out because she doesn't want to have uneven numbers. I am totally fine with this because I am on mat leave, don't have a ton of money to be spending on the shower, bachelorette and things for the wedding. I tell her this and things are fine. Then all of a sudden she is pretty short to me everytime I talk to her and then blocks me on face book. I have no idea what I did so I sent her an email asking her and she won't respond. Well she hasn't yet, she probably has to discuss her answer with A before she sends me an answer. B is a huge follower of A so everything she does has to be ran by A first. Its quite sad but B doesn't really have any friends. She just hangs out with her mom or her fiance so that is why she had to ask people she works with to be in her wedding. I feel bad for her in that respect but if she doesn't grow up and get a backbone then she isn't going to make any friends. I am just so angry that this has happened because I didn't even do anything. If I had done something to piss them off then fine delete me off facebook but when I have no idea what I have done at least have the balls to tell me. I can't read your mind!!! Anyways I needed to vent about this because it makes me so mad. I know I am not perfect but I certainly can't fix anything if I don't even know what I have done!

Bad time

The last couple days have been so horrible for me. First my friend S has been acting like a total b to me and I am not sure why. M said she thinks something else is going on with her that she doesn't want to talk about yet. I had kinda been thinking that because it is so unlike her to be like that. Oh well, its all figured out now. I have to figure out some things myself and deal with those. I know things are different with my friends and I have to get used to that. It will be hard though! I feel super left out by them, well except for M. She keeps me updated on things!!!

The other thing that happened is with my dad. He saw a neurologist yesterday and they think he has early stages of dementia or early onset alzheimers. He is going for some more testing and hopefully they can get him on some medication or something. We know now that the things he is doing is cuz things are working properly in his brain. He isn't just being super stubborn and things like that. My family all just has to come together and help support him in the next couple of years. My grandma in winnipeg has dementia and so we have some idea of how to deal with this stuff. Its still really hard though and I am sure there are going to be lots of tears shed in the next little bit. I am just hoping that my dad gets to meet all my kids before he stops remembering things.

As we were leaving the hospital I slipped in some water and both G and I fell to the ground. He hit his head and was screaming. A doctor in the Neurology dept saw the whole thing and checked him over and then sent us over to the ER to get him checked out more. He ended up being fine which was such a relief. I have a pretty sore butt and back but I can deal with that! All I cared about was that G was ok. He was back his normal self last night and this morning he was good after a good nights sleep!!

But today the sun is shining and I am hoping this black cloud that was over my family has been lifted and things with start looking up from here on out.

Health

So just as I was going to get dressed to go to the gym last night my brother called and wanted me to go to the hospital with him. He has a huge phobia of hospitals, doctors, surgery etc. Seriously he can't even walk into a hospital without getting anxiety. Well he has been having issues with his heart just racing so a month ago he went to emerg and got checked out. They gave him a prescription for this heart monitor he would have to wear for 24 hours. Well he went and asked for it twice and they kept telling him they would call him when one was available. No one called him. On Jan 3rd he called the place that was giving out the monitors and they told him to come right in. It was a month later. So ridiculous. Anyways he wore it for 24 hours and returned it. Then the day after he returned it (yesterday) they called him and told him to come into the hospital ASAP and if he felt ok he could drive himself, if not, then he should call an ambulance. Well he felt fine but he called me so I packed up G and we went and picked him up. I was slightly scared cuz they made it sound super serious. We went in to emerg and they admitted him and then we sat in the waiting room and waited.......and waited........and waited. J came and picked up G on his way home from work. At 8:15 I called my mom and told her she would have to come so I could go home and sleep. My brother finally got called in at 8:37 after we had been there for 4 hours. If this had been serious like they made it seem, he shouldn't have waited that long to get in.
Anyways to make a long story short, he had to stay overnight. They did an ultrasound on his heart, a stress test and some blood tests. The doctor wanted to keep him for another 5 days but my brother didn't want to stay so he signed himself out and he will see that cardiologist as an outpatient. On the stress test they found a blockage but it didn't show up on any other tests, so they are going to do some more tests. My brother has been told to take it easy and not do anything stressful. Hopefully he follows that.

Tonight I will be going to the gym to do night two of the couch to 5k. I hope it goes ok!!!

Another exciting thing is G has a tooth starting to come through!! I am so excited about this!

I also signed up to take baby & me water workout with my friend M and her little boy S. We are going to take G swimming tomorrow so hopefully he likes it!! Otherwise I am out a hundred bucks!! I am also meeting with a pastor this weekend to get G's baptism planned. We are going to do it on the long weekend in Feb. My cousin B is going to be his godmother and J's brother M is going to be his godfather.

Thats about all that is going on in my life now. Going to go have dinner now!!

Couch to 5k

Tonight I started back running! Man it felt so good to run but it was so hard. It has been probably a year and a half since I have ran.....maybe more then that. I can't even remember which is so bad. I found this app on my iPhone called Couch to 5k, it is a 9 week program that gets you running 30 mins straight or 5k if you run that fast. I am not sure I can actually run 5k in 30 minutes but I am sure going to try. I am so excited to be running again. I absolutely love it and hate it at the same time but I really miss it. Right now, I am just doing up to 5k and then I will see where I go from there. I would like to get really good at running 10k in like 45 minutes so eventually I will work toward that. I have to start on a treadmill so I am doing that at the gym. I walked at 3.2 mph and ran at 4.9 mph. I am going to try to keep up this pace for the running. Its going to be hard but I am willing to push myself. I am also going to start doing yoga during one of G's naps. Yoga really helps me when I am running because I get shin splints and IT band issues super easy.
I will keep posting here so I feel like I have someone to report too and it will keep me motivated!

I also wanted to tell you about our family day yesterday. It was so much fun and we didn't even really do anything!!! We took G to get his passport photos taken and he did great! I haven't gone to the passport office yet but I am going tomorrow....keep your fingers crossed they don't reject his pics. Otherwise, I have to go back and get the photos done again. After the photos were done, my hubby suggested we walk around the mall. I was shocked, he HATES shopping! I was ok with it though cuz I love the mall!! We wandered around and while he was checking out putters in the golf store we decided to head to our favorite sushi place for dinner. We made a stop at the health food store for some herbs for me and then went for dinner. We had taken a sushi making class at this restaurant a couple months ago and when we mentioned that they brought us free kobe beef and lobster salad. It was sooooo good!!! I ate so much!!! I love sushi and could eat it all the time! Then we came home and hung out with G and then got him ready for bed. After he went to bed hubby and I played scrabble! It was so much fun!!

Long time

Wow, its been a long time since I have been on here. LOTS has happened!! Baby H made his appearance on June 20. I was 5 days overdue and so sick of being pregnant so I went and walked for almost 4 hours with my dog and my friend and her son. When I got home I laid down for a bit before showering (we were having company over for dinner) and the contractions started. They started around 5:00pm and I had them all through dinner with our friends. A who was over for dinner is totally anti kid so I didn't tell her I was having contractions until they got more painful at like 10:00pm. Her and her husband booked it out of our house pretty fast cuz she thought the baby would fall out right then and there! We got to the hospital around midnight and I was already 8 cms dilated!! Well I pushed 6 times and Baby H was born at 2:28 am. On Father's day!!! Best father's day present ever for my husband! I won't be able to beat that next year. I didn't have an epidural. I only had fentynal (not sure if that is spelt right) but I don't think it really did anything. I kept asking if they had given it to me!!
Fast forward to today. G (formerly baby H) is now 6 months old. He is such a little character and has brought so much joy to mine and hubby's lives. I can't imagine our lives without him. He is rolling over, sitting up, eating solids, laughing, smiling and making tons of noises! G is just so much fun!! I love being on mat leave. I love that I get to experience so many of G's firsts. I couldn't imagine living in the states and not being able to stay home with my baby for a full year.
We just got back from Fernie, where we went to spend New Years with some friends of ours. It was fun but its so stressful traveling with a 6 month old and a puppy. Both G and J had fun though. J is exhausted from playing with our friends dog!!
I am trying to figure things out with some of my friends. I have been feeling extremely left out. I feel like its because I am the only one with a baby so I can't just go out at the last minute. I actually have to plan things and I don't think they understand that. I really love my life and where I am at but I also miss going out with my friends. Its just not the same anymore cuz no matter how late I stay out or how many drinks I have, I still have a baby that is going to get up at 7 in the morning. He doesn't care how little sleep I have had or if I am hungover. I am really going to have to get over these feelings. Things have changed, for the better for sure but they have changed and I have to accept that and move on.
Well I am going to try and keep up with this blog from now on. I need a place to get things off my chest. Right now, I am in the midst of finding a day home for my little man when I go back to work. It is such a hard thing. I don't want someone else looking after my baby! Another thing I am thinking of doing is joining a church and getting my boy baptized!! I am just really nervous to do this. I am not sure what to do!! I used to go to church when I was younger and up until I turned 18. Then I was given the choice and chose not to go but now that I have G I want to start taking him to church. I know, at 6 months old he won't get much out of it but I want him baptized and to go to sunday school when he is older. I will keep this updated so I can look back and see how I actually did with this.

I guess this is sort of a new years resolution! Here is my list of resolutions so far.....
1. Keep blog updated
2. Start running again
3. Work on changing things about myself that I don't like
4. Find a church to go to
5. Work on my relationship with my husband. Its good, but it could be better!

Another Vent

Ok it seems that everytime I come here I am just venting. I just have a ton on my mind and I am so frustrated right now. I went on facebook today and my cousin who I hardly ever speak too comes on and gives me crap because I travelled to winnipeg for a cousins wedding (this cousin was on my mom's side of the family and the cousin giving me crap is on my dad's side of the family.) and I didn't go visit my Oma, who is my dad's mom. Seriously, what business is it of his who I go visit. I was there for less then 48 hours and we were busy friday evening, all day saturday and sunday until we went to the airport with my cousins wedding. Because my husband was on a course we had to leave on sunday. Yes it happened to be mother's day but shouldn't he get annoyed with my dad who didn't go visit his mother on mother's day. I was with my mom on mothers day. AHHHH, I just hate how they all have to get involved and comment on what I do. I don't ask them when they go visit my oma cuz thats their business, not mine.
Anyways I needed to get that off my chest. I know I am probably taking this way too personally and its probably all because of the preggo hormones but whatever, it is really bothering me.